hello, its been a while.
just got back from visiting his Chinese side..not too bad for a first. There was lotsa good food, we watched Curse of Golden Flower (Gong Li is hot!) and met with his cousins..and of course, the hong baos. Goody good. =)
After that we caught Ghostrider at Junction 8 - if I had known it was corny and starred droopy-eyed Nicholas Cage, we would've chosen something else..geez. Anyways, just a short update of me..I've put on some pounds (gross), room's in a mess (double gross) and the brown hair's growing out of its colour (bleargh).
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On a more serious note,
There's just something about the way I see things these days. Life's looking a bit more 'big-picture', and somehow its hard to keep to my checklist of to-do's, and my goals and aims. I wonder if its complacency and procrastination on my part (i.e I'm not stepping up enough), or simply, there's more to that well-kept room, the jogs, etc.
There are big questions to think about. Like how my life could change in 16 months if god-willing, we get hitched by then. How after that big day, I could possibly have kids of my own. Like how next year's CNY could be the last one where I get hongbaos..the next ones, I'd start dishing the red packets out instead.
The wedding venue, our guest list, re-evaluating relationships with our family and friends, how we'd manage as a team, etc. Big stuff. Sometimes it gets rather overwhelming, then I'd remind myself to breathe..and that everything has its place in time. Still, there's something about this stage in life, where you kinda like the independent single life, yet feel guilty when you over-indulge and splurge cos u know there's a bigger cause and life-changing purpose to work towards to.
Its a limbo - between going all out for the kill and prepping for the whole married-life responsibilities, or taking it slow and embracing the single unmarried life as it is.
Either way, we've tread in deep waters to know that there is no point of return. I think I have subconciously told my single self that the road ahead is long and winding, perhaps hazy at this point of time, but in time it will all get clearer and I will begin a new chapter of my life, just as the past chapters had opened and closed as it was meant to. Then I will have to blow a flying kiss to my single-life.
Till then, this chapter remains written, a day at a time. One thing that I'd remember always though, is that 'I would not fear tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday, and I love today.'
Cheers. =)