things haven't been goin as smoothly as i wished these days.
yeah sure..the job's all good, takes my mind of missing my baby and it puts things pretty much with order..and i'm content with the level of busy-ness in my life..its not too lil, not too much - just nice to keep me on my toes at all times.
i never felt so full of purpose and direction in my life b4.
however, it jus seems like things b/w me and boy r gettin a lil more tense now..started havin one of those thoughts again..which upsetted him.
keep telling myself to yank outta this sorry state and to constantly remind myself that things are ok.
it just doesn't seem to be.
i have to stop feeling sorry for myself for once..and stop having all these tales that feed poison into our relationship.
sweet vengeance? what the fuck was i thinkin.
i'm sorry boy.
gotta run..class startin later.
don't help that i'm feelin crap rite now.
:(