Today was exhausting. One meeting after another, plus the work pending. It's amazing. Such an adrenalie rush..my hands were cold with excitement/anxiety/stress all at once..amazing.
Anyways work gives me such a rush. I'm so determined to strive for 101% in everything I do..maybe its that greenhorn syndrome. Wonder if it'll ever wear out. But right now the possibilities are endless so I'm just pushing myself to go as far as I can and make every opportunity count.
I had a chocolate craving just now. For Milo peng. Last week when I was ill I had Milo. I think its my confort food..kinda brings me back to childhood days at the babysitter's with my bottle of yummy Milo. But I settled for a Milo choco energy bar (after my plate of Malay rice?!) instead. It had rice bubbles in it, don't ask me why. But with my chocolate fix I was an Energizer bunny after that..
Came back from work pretty zonked out. I've discerned some patterns I've developed over these mths since I've started working.
1. I touch my ears, stroke my neck a good bit when I'm thinking/talking to my colleagues.
2. I look at the mirror at the side of my comp quite a lot too, to check on make up and hair. tsk tsk. Vain pot.
3. I use the lift from the platforms to the 1st floor of the MRT station on my way back. I take a bus to work with the same people in it, and the bus has a UK flag all over it asking people to buy UK land as a profitable investment.
I feel like one of the characters in a fiction book, where the guy has lived a life with such patterns so routinely carved into his day. These stories often portray the guy as a lonely old man void of passions in his life. I, however, am pretty happy with having established such patterns in mine. Again, I wonder if its a syndrome of a greenhorn graduate who seeks stability in her life as she starts her adult life.
Whatever it is, we'll have to go with the flow and see how it all turns out..
Sometimes its this unravelling of a story - my story, which keeps me going and reminds me how great it is to be alive and blessed.
Have you thought about yours yet?