This past week has been crazy..
Saturday was the long-awaited D&D..I performed a latin number with Maya & Megat..we rocked! Hubby played the drums too..had fun, but the work leading up to the event was seriously no joke!
Today woke up to have breakfast with the nephews and family..love them! CUte cute cute. But we figured we weren't parent material yet cos playing with them for 15 mins left us tired and passing the baby back to his daddy hehe~
On another note the week found me having to make some assessment of my mental health at work. Its been pretty crazy, with the big changes happening lately, and being caught right smack in it all has left us pretty tired, and low-morale.
When do you decide its time to go? Some people have it easy, they're not happy, they pack up and leave. Move on. No questions asked.
For me, I'd admit that I'm no risk-taker. There are some push-factors, and some pull-back factors as well. Thing is, they're in equal weightage. And it has been advised that unless one heavily outweighs the other, then you take the plunge. As the days go by, I feel as if the push-reasons get stronger and stronger, but the fighter in me just wants to stay put and fight it all off. Real question is, is the stay worth it? How do you know that its really time to go?
Sometimes it would be so much easier if there was a crystal ball in front of us, or just having that resilience and courage to go forth and just do it. Unfortunately, I find myself lacking in the latter, and as a result, experiencing the ups-and-downs on a daily basis. I think this state of limbo is not very healthy, as there is no clear focus as to where I should be aiming, nor do I feel that kind of excitement to really go all out for.
So where does it leave me? One very confused person.
I guess I just need to stay a bit longer, and see how it goes. Give myself a deadline, where I can say, yes I've tried but it just ain't right.
Crossroads can be very very tiring to face sometimes. But that's when big decisions are made, values and choices are questioned and one goes a level-up in fulfilling what he was meant to do.
Hope I'll make the right decision when the moment comes..